Despair

Sometimes i really feel like crying, but the tears never come.

They all said JC was hard. They never told us it was this hard.
Perhaps it would have been better if someone else were the leader. The person who has more charisma than me to command the attention of the entire group. Maybe i am being too sensitive, too soft, too nice. I have no idea how to get them to listen to me. Hopefully they send me their parts by tomorrow though or else i will have to chase them again. And i hate running-.-

Even though you probably won't read this, i really appreciate all those words of encouragement you gave me. Even if maybe it was just to assuage your guilt over handing in the work late, it did make me feel a teeny bit better. I'm really glad we are in the same group because if i were alone in this, i'd probably have given up long ago.

Thank you so much.