life after you

Its a sudden feeling, creeping up on you when you least expect it.
Ok maybe i shouldn't have been raiding facebook but now i just miss how we used to be. When things were so simple and there weren't that many other problems.
When i had my friends whom i could tell anything to and be as crazy as i want without anyone giving me a weird face.
When i was in comfortable, familiar surroundings.

Sure, my class is great. I've made some really great friends. I can survive the lessons( well at least the first 10 minutes, excluding P.E.) but it just can't replace the ones i had before. Sigh, i should just grow up and let go of the past as easily as others seem to be able to.

I just realised that my holidays are pretty much gone. With a packed schedule of going out i can just lose all hope of doing homework much less revising. Today didnt go well at all. Got distracted by the book and only managed to pull myself away from the computer by knocking myself unconscious. Until now, that is. All this time, other people are mugging away studiously while i have succumbed to the call of my bed. Plus i didnt hand in physics prac and my teacher is... i dont know/ remember what he will do to me when i give it to him and i dont really wish to know since it definitely will not be good considering that it has been like 3 days late already.

Ok, so here is this week's dilemma: i've been wondering if i should cut my hair like shoulder length short. A LOT of people have been commenting that i look like my classmate which is not exactly a bad thing but i dont like looking like someone else that much. Not that cutting a bit of my hair will help much but it might? Plus i dont know if i should cut my fringe cos according to some people, it does not look like a fringe at all. Haha i sound so self-absorbed. Anyways, i shall take this holiday to think about it and then decide.

Pre project work cycle is finally done. YES!!!!! One less thing to worry about. Until the real one comes out that is... Wonder who my real team mates are going to be... It was actually pretty fun working with S and A. Although they were ganging up against me and all, posting defamatory comments on facebook and destroying my image. Haha. S was so affected by this couple sitting behind me who were uhh... getting intimate. Fortunately i was sitting the other direction so i didnt see anything but he got the full view. LOLs! Then A started give us comments on love and all. For example, "Pooh told piglet: 'keep me in your heart and i will stay there forever'" or sth like that. Haha i keep thinking that it is "kick me in your heart..." LOLs. Anyways, i just blurted out that i didn't believe in love when they asked me for my views during the span of time i was half listening, half doing the proposal. Its not that i dont believe in love at all. I do believe that there is love in this world. For example, i love my family and friends and all and i know some couples, like my parents, who do love each other very much. However, i wonder if love can last forever. Many people use the word loosely nowadays. Telling their friends or acquaintances that they 'love' them when they dont really mean it in the true sense of the word. Has the word lost its meaning over the years? Is that why there are such high divorce rates in the world nowadays? People claim that they 'love' someone when they dont in fact know exactly what the word means? Singers sing about how they once loved a person then 'got over' them. So did they even love the person in the first place? In my opinion, love is just a feeling. Feelings come and go. How would you know if the love you feel for someone will last? You can tell a person how much you love them but if you don't do anything, don't sacrifice anything for them, it is meaninglesss.

Ok anyways, thats just rambling. I can't wait to see all my wonderful juniors and teachers and levelmates again. Maybe i'll go on both days. Haha that would really burn my holidays. See how first la. I never really liked SC but now, i can't imagine not being in it.