I'm not sure just how much longer i can hold

<-My fav china trip photo! (for now)


Sigh, nothing much to blog about now, especially since i really need to study for chinese O levels. You see everyone studying around you and it just makes you feel guilty that you aren't doing that as well too at that moment. It make you feel that you are not doing anything and suddenly, the essays that you have read but not memorised didn't seem so great after all. It makes you want to turn back time, study hard for chinese so that it wouldn't be so hard now.

Hah i just deleted this whole para. I wonder if you know, i really regret losing you. Now, i realised that you were the only true friend i ever had. If only i could talk to you now. Maybe i would feel better. Seriously, i still don't know who i am. Sigh.

My favourite song now, Avalanche by Marie Digby:

Since when do you come around
And the temperature has changed
Nothing's the same

Left me yesterday
You don't see me that way
Touch me that way no more
When did you get so cold
I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standing at the bottom of this mountain that we made
And the ground is shaking from all of our mistakes
But there's no wall nothing but us is in our way
It's a matter of time
We can rewind

If you only knew
What my heart goes through for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche)
Oh, this avalanche
(avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?

We see what's up ahead
Why do we stay, watching us fading?
Trapped in by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in
And it's so cold
I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standing at the bottom of this mountain that we made
And the ground is shaking from all of our mistakes
But there's no wall nothing but us is in our way
It's a matter of time
We can rewind

If you only knew
What my heart must do for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche)
Oh, this avalanche
(avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?

Front is breaking
And it's taking over my spirit
Quickly, quickly
Something's shifted
Have we drifted too far apart now?
If you only knew...

If you only knew
What my heart must do for you
I'm trying to break through
Don't you think it's worth a chance?
Let's leave the past
Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand
Can we pull through this avalanche?
(avalanche, avalanche)
Oh, this avalanche
(avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche?